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Moonlight shone down from the moon overhead. No clouds hovered in the sky - it was a surprisingly clear, shockingly beautiful night. Within blood village, nights had never been this...quiet and still. There was the distant roar of the violence that it knew, perhaps a muffled gunshot in the night or the sound of glass shattering...And though it was peaceful, it made the pang of homesickness Alibi felt all the more apparent.
Uncomfortable within the depths of the cove, she opted to sleep outside. The sand getting onto the burns she had attained wasn't exactly pleasant, but, the sand that was squishy and soft beneath her injured hindleg felt far nicer than the hard, stony floor. She shifted about, trying to get comfortable as she watched the wave. Between her paws, she had a small fish, something she'd actually, believe it or not, caught for herself. Granted, it was pathetically tiny. But, the lessons an...old, 'crab' friend of hers, Gilligan, had taught her never went forgotten. So many things the Crabs did was so...different compared to the life she knew and loved. Truly, they lived in two different worlds.
Ears perked at the soft sound of sand crunching, but, she didn't move from where she was sprawled out. "Good night," she greeted them in a soft, kind voice, "can't sleep either?" 'Or, does the thought of big, scary beasts sleeping just outside your door frighten you? Poor things...'
Mesqo had decided to sleep within the cove that night, she was running in her sleep. Just the dream running, she was not doing very well here. Stress levels crept up on her and the dream or nightmare got even worse. She jolted awake and looked around, she was breathing extremely heavy. Suddenly she knew it was another bad dream, sighing she got to her paws.
"I need to get out of here" She needed some time, not space, but she really meant she wanted to go find somewhere away from the beach or Eyes turf and just relax.
As she walked to the entrance she noticed someone was awake and it did not take them long to notice her either. A Saint, she knew the smell well now. Oddly enough she'd adjusted to having them around. It was odd but yeah.
"Good night" She greeted with a smile. She was still fairly out of breath and even more tired now from her night terror, at least she didn't try and just fly out of there at top speed. She'd done that before and managed to collect a few bruises. "Nah sleep's a bitch, got the problem of night terrors .." She cringed with a small sigh. "You? Bet you're missing home by now" She could understand that if Alibi was indeed missing home. She missed her old home as well, she glanced down and then refocused back onto Alibi. Mesqo quietly moved closer and sat down not far by, she was relaxed but slightly on edge after what just happened. She needed to let her heart rate slow down but her muscles were not as tense now.
This isn't exactly what she had in mind, she was going to just take a walk on the beach or something, but she didn't mind meeting others or a conversation and such.
A cropped ear twitched, a small shine of sympathy for the Eyes dog creeping into her pale blue gaze. Night Terrors? She was no stranger to them. Waking up from a sleep in the midst of the night in a cold sweat, expecting to feel the cool metal of a cage around her, and a hand reaching to pull her to next fight. Thankfully, night terrors were nothing more than that - terrors.
The brindle dog's question ushered a tilt of Alibi's head. "Miss home?" She repeated with a hum. "I suppose I do. The beach isn't so bad either." Unlike the majority of her gangmates, she didn't hate it here. The sand didn't bother her all too much, and the sound of the waves were rather soothing at night. Still, Blood Village, despite its terror and violence, was home. "And I'm positive you and the rest of your gang looks forward to when we leave this place, hm?" Alibi's voice was full of nothing but a playful, gentle tease, like a mother talking about something whimsical.
Mesqo was a bit more relaxed now, she was still a bit rattled from her night terror but the cool air, the nice open space and sound of the water did help. She often tried to do a lot to get away from the beach but even she had to admit it was very soothing. Her night terrors were a mix of things mostly the attack on her unit and nearly everything after. Mesqo felt her mind would never fully recover from what happened, but she hoped she would learn to live with it somehow.
"The Beach can be nice, I do stay away from here rather often though" She wasn't entirely sure of the concrete reason why, it was a mix of them really. Everything going on with the Eyes and her own personal struggles. "I do like forests and I do not mind the city sometimes" Mesqo randomly thought out loud with a little smile.
Mesqo threw a gentle and playful smile Alibi's way "I can not speak for the others.. I have seen you guys might scare them a little" She paused glancing down for a moment then refocusing on Alibi again "I, personally though haven't minded having you lot around oddly enough" She was telling the truth as well. The stories and everything made her curious, and she was always on the lookout to chat with a Saint, she liked what most of them had to say. Some of them did not much want to speak with an Eye, she half didn't blame them. The gang had a rather strange vibe about them right now. "You.. Well most of you who don't mind talking to me, have a lot of interesting things to say" Again truth, she liked that she was able to chat with Alibi. She did seem different in a way, and she was very relaxed with the other dog still on alert but that was her natural state these days.
"Ah, I see," Alibi's voice was kindly, filled with a honeyed warmth of a mother. She had little problem listening to other dogs chat away, lending nothing but a soft voice of agreement or nod of her head. The peace that came from the crash of the waves to the soft lull of another's voice speaking to her was comforting. "It's relieving to know that someone doesn't mind us." Voice tinged with a playfulness, she gave her large, bulky head a slight nod. "Many of my fellow gangmates come from tragic lives. Many have something interesting to say, be it knowledge or experiences," she agreed with Mesqo as she shifted slightly, letting her paws stretch out, if just so she could lay her head onto them. "Many could learn a lot from them." She, of course, held her gangmates in a high regard, as her voice was filled with a genuine respect and awe for them. They'd survived and endured hardships that most couldn't. Sure, they were a bit rough on the outside, but, their lives were interesting tales.
"If you can find some that won't mind a talk, it might be worth it in the end." Her tail gave the slightest of wags before stilling once more.
Alibi surprised Mesqo, she sounded like a really nice dog but of course not one to be messed with. This made her even more curious to further get to know her. Mesqo partly pretended to know why the Eyes were scared, still she did not feel the exact same way. Some of the Saints had her on alert, but she felt it was only cos of her status as a dog of the Agwe's Eyes, they probably thought she was some strange freak into .. Hoodoo or whatever it was they were up to now. She wouldn't lie, her mind struggled to keep up with all of this.
Mesqo felt she also had a story to tell, a struggle which brought her here and in some ways brought her down, and she was slowly recovering. Physically she was fine but the mental scars were the ones that had been brutal. "I've noticed how some react but is it odd to say I feel more safe with you guys? Odd thing to say probably" Mesqo shrugged, but she did and it was odd. Not even she knew why or what was going on through her head. It was a battle in there for sure.
"Oh I've no doubt, a lot of you look like you've lived through such a story and come through it strong and brave" Mesqo had smiled at Alibi, she was trying to work around asking if she had stories for Mesqo perhaps. She did not want to pry, but she was oh so curious, Mesqo would also ... share her own story which she'd never really done, but she felt comfortable with Alibi. "Do .. You have a story?" She asked. "Sorry if that's crossing into unpleasant territory, you're more than welcome to shush me" She said with a friendly smile. "I would love to learn from you if you were up for it or even if it was another time, that's entirely up to you" Mesqo suddenly remembered it was late night and well she didn't sleep like most dogs around her, she functioned on very little sleep and was used to it.
Her tail swished lightly as she got comfortable, she wasn't expecting Alibi to tell her anything but was hopeful. Even if not she did suddenly feel more at ease being around someone like her, she was less tense and the world felt rather normal. Less unknown and strange. It was a good feeling, one she hadn't really felt since her arrival. "I don't come complete with scars you can see, but I have a story myself as well" At least she was fairly sure it was.
"Safe?" Alibi mused aloud with a tilt of her head. That...was a new one. But, it did cause the dog's tail to give a single wag. "That's reassuring." But, it wasn't necessarily untrue. Sure, her gang was full of dangerous dogs. But, these dangerous dogs were, however briefly, on the same side as the Eyes. Anyone would be a fool to try and attack or do them any harm whilst they were here.
Her short cropped ears twitched forward at the other dog's question, her head giving the slightest tilt. A story? "It's nothing grand or complicated, I'm afraid." Alibi gave a well-meaning laugh. Compared to some, her story was far from interesting or even complicated. It was just...sad. An unfortunate situation. Her tongue lapped over her jowls for a moment, her eyes closing, if just to remember her past. Who she was. where she came from. Her life story. "I don't mind though. Even if its hard, accepting your past as who you are and moving forth from it is always the best way to move on." She spoke in a gentle, knowing tone. It was why that, regardless how kind she was now, she knew who she used to be. A murderer. A killer. There was no denying what she'd done in the past, despite how honey sweet her words were in this present. It was the memory of taking a pleading life with her own jowls that helped her move on...or, so she thought at least. Perhaps it was just deep, internal guilt and suffering that tried to justify itself for existing.
Realizing she'd fallen silent for a moment, she rested her heavy head onto her paws. "How about you go first?"
Mesqo understood why there might be surprise or even confusion about what she'd say a thing like that, Safe? She hadn't really heard what a lot of other Eyes thought in great detail, just some odd words here and there as she passed on by. Always wanting to make her own opinions of others, she did not really take a lot of the more harsh comments to heart. Things were a bit mix matched right now anyway, she felt the pinch of what was going on, and she didn't much like it. It was hard, she couldn't make sense of it and that alone was making her anxious. With what was going on with the Saints, it seemed black and white, they were guest's, and they were helping them. Simple. The rest ..not simple.
She suddenly noticed she had gotten lost in her own thoughts. "Doesn't have to be, it's your story, in even a little way it matters .. Maybe it helped you grow or learn.. Shaped you .. So yeah it's important no matter what" She had smiled gently. No ones story was not grand in someway, not any less of a struggle. She wondered what Alibi had been through, she wouldn't judge her any less. The dog before her was friendly and kind towards her, that was what mattered to Mesqo.
"That is very true, I like that. It can be hard but it's all we can do to move forward" Mesqo was at the point of moving forward but it only seemed like only yesterday her had happened. That her world had been flipped upside down and turned inside out. It felt distant but at the same time, it also felt like yesterday.
"Sure I can do that" Mesqo nodded or at least she'd try, she wasn't sure if her own story was anything grand to hear about but why not. "Well, I was raised as a military dog, I went out into the field quite a lot. In the thick of dangerous battles, it was always intense and heated.. Not to mention hot" She lightly chuckled, she was a desert dog she really liked the desert and was missing it. "We were stationed out in the desert, this was after my training had been completed, and I was given a human partner" Mesqo paused and sighed, she was sad about losing her best friend and partner in crime, they were really close. Her human always told Mesqo that she was the best thing to ever happen to her, it hurt her heart a great deal, but she still valued those memories a lot.
"I never had much to do with other dogs at first, minus when I was a puppy. After that training I did know the other dogs that were in our unit and the other sort of dogs we met were always enemies, big powerful dogs among other sorts of hidden danger's as well" She went on to explain just a few smaller details about her time and what she did but .. Then it came to the real part of the story. Mesqo took a deep breath. "One day like any other day really, we were out for well just a standard task and our unit was attacked, we were blind sighted, huge .... well lots of flames and loud sounds, everything was blurred and the trucks ended up taking flight, we were mostly okay, but they came and over powered everyone" She had to pause, old images of the event seeing everyone die in front of her, the dogs crying out in pain along with the humans. "Sorry" She said looking down for a moment.
"They ... were gone I saw my human .. She wasn't moving, much like a lot of the other humans and my fellow canines" She was still looking down, soon she refocused on Alibi and continued her voice was a bit shaky "I was injured, I can't remember how badly it was a blur really. Soon the fighting seemed to stop but the enemy grabbed the remaining dogs and took us away" She glanced off to the side "It seemed like forever, I ended up in a strange place, caged and alone, there was a lot of screaming, crying and it smelt of fear" Mesqo felt a shiver run down her spine, such an awful feeling and it shook her to the core, but she was able to refocus again. "I was put in ... some sort of large sand box with crowds all around, more screaming and blood stained everywhere.. Some of it was fresh even. Another dog blind sided me ... that ... that ....oh gosh" She sighed.
"I wasn't sure what was going on but it was hell... I was rescued by a police raid, and they took me in, I made my way back to the military, but I was broken...after healing my physical injuries they basically retired me. I was struggling a lot and just.. After a while I ran away.. I ran.. And I ran.....ran...I didn't stop my paws bleed on the hot ground. It's sort of how my story started here" She hadn't been here that long really "My first few months here are still a bit of a blur, I wasn't doing well or walking well because of my paws" They were nearly raw at that point. "And... uhh yeah.. That is me.. That is my story so far I guess" She said a little shake went through her entire body.
"The pain never really goes away, I'm hoping one day I might be more at peace with everything but uhh yeah ...not right now at least" She took another deep, long and calming breath. Wow, that had been hard and you could see the pain in her expression, that light leaving her eyes for a moment. Mesqo turned to Alibi and bluntly said "Life's a bitch" She half frowned whilst shaking her head.
Alibi listened to Mesqo's story with a keen gaze and an alert, listening ear, even as she silently crunched and finished eating the tiny fish she'd caught for herself. She found herself quite...shocked. The shepherd had been through a lot - which, understandably, a lot of them had. But, to be within the military before stolen away to be used in what sounded like dog-fighting - to be taken back before running away, the dog truly had endured a lot. Alibi found herself feeling incredibly sympathetic, even if it was for a dog she'd seldom just met.
"Oh dear," Alibi spoke in a soft voice, shaking her head, "I'm sorry you had to endure through all of that. You have incredible strength." Her voice was like a mother's - gentle, filled with a certain sweetness that could make any feel at ease. "You've found a wonderful gang to call home though. At last, you can rest." True, the Eyes were a bit...odd. But, they seemed quite kind, especially towards one another. It was the perfect lifestyle for a stray who'd endured far too much in their life. And while she wasn't sure if it could ever feel like the 'home' Mesqo had in mind, she could only hope it could and would.
"It'll take time for you to find peace with yourself. Even I struggle with it still. But, it's not to rush, love." Alibi gently said with a reassuring nod.
Mesqo glanced towards Alibi, she smiled at her softly "Thank you, that does make me better, its still pretty fresh or at least it feels that way. So I haven't really stop to think about considering how I handled everything" She felt she failed in so many ways and it was just tragic, friends, her human, they died and even thought it wasn't her fault. Mesqo always put the blame on herself. Head always filling with what if's and maybes, but in truth nothing could change the past, no matter how much you wanted it to.
Alibi mentioned how she'd found a lovely home and now she could rest, Mesqo wasn't sure entirely if that was true. "I... I'm not sure if this my true home or not.. I will never not be grateful but .. Well I'm sure anyone would understand, I'm not even sure I understand" Rest was also the last thing on her mind. She wanted to be in the thick of it again, working hard and doing a good job. Most of the time she felt like well all she did was rest, yeah she even considered a patrol a rest. It was just so quiet, no doubt most would call her crazy but Mesqo knew how she felt and wasn't sure what could help her through any of this.
"Agreed life might be harsh but there will be many times after to heal and grow from those harsh experiences" Mesqo looked at the sand for a moment and then back towards Alibi "It's just a shame healing can hurt so much" She let out a small defeated sigh.
Alibi tilted her head slightly. Unfortunately, she couldn't relate to that feeling, of not knowing where her home was. While the idea of living with one of the more peaceful gangs sounded delightful...the Saints, regardless where they went or were, were her home. They were a horrible, terrible, and occasionally dysfunctional family, but, a family nonetheless. The idea of leaving them was a nonexistent thought in her mind. There would be no other place who knew her pains nor could she relate to (despite being so different) more than the Saints. "Always follow your heart," Alibi merely offered, "you know what's best for you in the end." She gave a firm nod. She may not have been able to relate to the feeling, but, that didn't mean she couldn't understand. "When you get injured, its said the skin that scars over heals stronger than it was before. I think that can apply even to life." Alibi said with a small smile and nod.
Alibi was an interesting dog, she was different to other Saints but Mesqo didn't bother with thinking what was out of place or not. Everyone was different and yeah, even in a group like the Saints surely a light could be found within the strong, brutal gang. She pinned Alibi as that light. Mesqo nodded her head agreeing "Yes it's always the best course of action" She smiled, it really was and this was what felt right to her. Crazy and perhaps insane but right, she was always up for living a challenging life. Her life in the military was not all sunshine and daisies, she'd work and find her place in life, even if it killed her. Mesqo was stubborn, and she'd fight hard for her goals.
Mesqo listened closely, she glanced down but nodded before returning her focus on Alibi again "Wow, I really like that and I do agree with you" It really was something awe inspiring and it would stick with Mesqo probably forever. She smiled to herself, she really liked meeting others finally. She'd kept to herself for so long, it felt a bit strange at first but slowly Mesqo adjusted. "Don't suppose you got any advice for night terrors" She hadn't been able to get by them, and they were not going anywhere anytime soon. They were like an old wound that refused to heal and every night it would reopen causing her extreme pain and trouble. She felt like they should be gone by now, not fully understanding it didn't quite work like that. Even if that's how she wished it would.
"Night terrors?" Alibi repeated, head giving a tilt. She was plagued with them herself. And she knew why. She knew exactly why. And yet, the solution was so simple, even if it was, by far, the hardest to accomplish. "They happen for a reason. For me, its...guilt, I suppose. Things I simply can't let go of. I do it to myself. I feel...guilty, as though someone like myself doesn't quite deserve to have a peaceful life, full of happiness and no despair." She gave a lighthearted laugh, as though the conversation were as easy as talking about one's favorite food. "It'll take time. Maybe, internally, I'll never be able to forgive myself. But, maybe, one day I will." Despite her almost peaceful, hopeful thinking, there was something unmistakably somber about her tone. "I believe that coming to peace with yourself is one way to combat them. However, that's much easier said than done, no?"
She let out a little laugh, moving one forepaw to neatly cross it over the other. "I'm sorry I can't be a little bit more help, love. Perhaps you should ask one of your assistants, and see if they have herbs to help get a good nights rest? I know some flowers do wonderfully for calming the nerves with a single smell."
Tags: Alibi | Notes: Ooof again I apologize!! Things are a bit crazy atm lol I really love Alibi though!!!
Mesqo glanced down and to the side, yeah she could see her reason being guilt as well. Not all of it of course, but she did feel like that whole event was her fault and always blamed herself. She hadn't entirely thought about it since arriving, not really a lot of time but lately all she seemed to have was time. "Yeah that sound's not so far off from myself either, guilt" She winced at the word "Awful thing, even if we know it wasn't truly our fault ... Still plagues me every damn waking moment" Mesqo sighed shaking her head. Was it her fault? No, she had no way to tell what was going to happen. Still, nothing helped, Alibi was right, perhaps time would be the only thing that would heal these wounds. "You are right, time might be the only thing to cure my problems. Even then not entirely but enough that I can live with the face I see in the water's reflection every day, the soul and burden I carry on my back. For now, it remains heavy and weighing" But maybe one day it might not.
She brightened up a little with a soft smile and a small chuckle "OH believe me, you really have helped me and I'm really thankful for that. You got me thinking and for once its thoughts in the right direction but yes, herbs might be the way to go. Might help me for now" She nodded "As I really need some good sleep" A laugh echoed slightly, just a quiet musical laugh. "Hey Alibi mind if I stay around here with you? We don't need to chat its pretty late but I do feel more safe with you around" She hoped that she wouldn't mind her asking that. It wasn't forward or anything, she liked having Alibi around, she was calming and kind, she felt different around her, more at peace. Perhaps she could catch a short nap without the terrible night terrors.
It pained her, truly and dearly, that something so heavy weighed on the shepherd's heart. However, the first step towards healing was acknowledging, wasn't it? And even though the golden bully had the desire to just scoop up all of Mesqo's problems and battle them away with a firm hug and reassuring words, she knew it'd take more than that. Motherly love simply couldn't win all battles, unfortunately. She wasn't entirely sure if the military hound would be all too fond of being smushed into the solid, muscular warmth of her short fur either, in hindsight. Most in the Saints didn't, if she were being honest. And so, Alibi offered her a knowing nod.
Her ears perked up at Mesqo's question, and a smile soon etched across her lips, growing wider and wider until it turned into that typical, wide, 'bully' smile, with her cropped ears pinned slightly back, and those usually devilishly pale eyes closed, the deep creases in her muzzle pulled into an unmistakably wide 'smile'. "Of course, sugar." Alibi once again laid down, letting her head fall onto her paws, as she slightly curled up, facing the waves. "Stay out here with me for as long as you'd like." Silence fell, allowing her warm words to trickle and linger into the air.
At some point, she was positive she had dozed off, lulled in relaxation by the ocean waves, the warm sands, and the nearness of a friend.
Mesqo, d'awww I'm glad you do! I thought this would be the perfect way to end this thread! Thanks so much for the great thread! Def gotta do these two again sometime!
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